I am not a Performer

I am not a Performer especially a stage performer. In my dreams I participated a lot, but in reality not... In my prayers.. I pray to god to give some ability not in this birth.. Consider me for the next birth.. :(

@ trivandrum

Reached trivandrum...
Dont know what to do...
Like to visit some places...
Like see some friends
Like to walk through some old path..

I know nothing is as usual..
I know nothing will come back
My life is away from me
I know she never comes back..

My Diary

Started wring Diary... In my mother tongue.  I feel some relaxation after finishing every page. Now I feel that I can share everything with my Diary. Now my diary is my great friend. But I am suspect that how can I 100 percent sincere to my diary. 

Mother

I have a question to you... who is the most trusted person in your life ? My answer is my mother.. because she is the only person who can feel happy when I am happy. And she will be sad if I am sad. When ever she calls me, she will ask..Son, did you eat something? every time she asks the same.. But if your girl friend calls you she will ask hey!!1 what are you doing now? :)

Managers

Managers are just like Pigs!!... Don't fight with them.. you just allow them to win in the argument. If you argue with them that will make frustration with in you, but they can enjoy these argument. When Pigs are fighting with other animals in Mud, that will make other animals uncomfortable, But Pigs can enjoy fights in Mud :)

My Pre - IT life

I am an IT professional.. I know many programming languages like Java, C/C++ / .Net technologis
, PHP/ Ruby / Python and many more. So I gets job very easily. I could work as fast as possible. During my college days I spend many hours in front of my computer to study these technologies.
My father  and mother suspect that I am doing some illegal things with my PC. Actually No.. but very less I do :)
I know how to implement algorithms, I know how to Implement a web application.. But I don't know my syllabus.. I don't anything in my text books. I failed in my university exams. I was unable to attend campus recruitment drives.
 

How I survive my heart break

When my girl friend decided to move away from me, that was a great experience to me. great in the scene I could not believe that she is going to leave me. We loved each other very much. I can imagine a day with out her phone call, with out her messages...
But that happened, I tried to call her back but she did not take the call...
I cried a lot...That was a rainy season. I ride my bike through heavy rain... and I was crying...so no one can Identify I am crying.. My friends are always with me... This time gave me an opportunity to found good friends around me. Some friends bring me to Beach.. I cried aloud in beaches. Some friends compel me to drink alcohol.
Everyday I was improving..at last I could handle situation.. I could smile..I could watch movies...
Everything gives me confidence to move on from this difficulty.

My decisions are my fate

Every moment we decided to do something, if it went well everybody appreciate us and will said you are brilliant. If something went wrong, we will say It is my fate. Actually It is not your fate, it is result of your decision. Every decision has an output. That may be success or failure.

If our thoughts are pure and positive 90% of decision will also be right. This is the reason for some people wins all crisis. They should take right decision.

I have a Love

Once I had a love. She loved me a lot... she helped me lot when I had emergency... I  deeply loves her... After the studies, she god a better job than me.. she left my state. Every day min 4-5 hours we talked through phone. I too got a job at an MNC in my state. We had plan to marriage after some years.
She was very possessive to me..and i enjoyed her possessiveness. One day we quarreled each other and she told me everything is over. And she left me.. Still I don't know what happened in between us.
We can't separate each other. She never called me..

She may got better option than me... but..

I tried to contact her.. she hurt me a lot... But Still I love her.. deeply..

My First Post

Dear Friends,

I am in blogger, this is not for competing with any one. I need some platform to publish my thoughts, my pain and my happiness.  I don't have any friends. I don't have relatives. My thoughts are my friends because every time I am in  dream. You may think that I am sick :) . My my thoughts creates a magic world. I have lot of friends in that world. They are caring me... they are always with me.

I will introduce those friends with you. I bring you to my world. welcome

Thanks
Joe